Why not seek to fulfill the drives and urges that a woken fetish or kink wont stop suturing?
All the reasons why not are associated to someone else, all the people who have an opinion about how you are supposed to live your life and experience things in it.
It is not why there a fee that is too expensive compered to all the services that people purchase for fulfillment. It is not because there is degree of risk and abuse, as notice on the policy and terms of service. It is not because it is a mystery and is unavailable.

Maybe the suppression is something that you want to keep up and not complicate the current status quo, but if you do. You will have less chances in the future since life changes too fast and all of our days are numbered. Click above for session, or best wishes to you.