Why not seek to fulfill these drives and urges, that have woken a fetish or kink that wont stop stirring?
You have heard of bdsm and it excites you. You dont know where to stat until you landed on this page, and now that you have, you say no no this will never be me. Being plaid by a dominant that has experience how to arouse me and drive me crazy is not what my church or may mother or my husband would like.
All the reasons why not are associated to someone else, all the people who have an opinion about how you are supposed to live your life, and experience things in it.
It is not why there is a fee that is too expensive compered, to all the services that people purchase for other fulfillments. A weekend in a Disney park is well really rally expensive, but I somehow cant afford t be driven wild in a way that no long line of a Disney ride could ever do.
It is not because there is degree of risk and abuse, as notice on the policy and terms of service. It is not because it is a mystery and is unavailable.

Maybe the suppression is something that you want to keep up, and not complicate the current status quo, but if you do. You will have less chances in the future since life changes too fast now days, and all of our days are numbered. Click above for session, or if you conclude that all the why not-s, are sufficient to forget this chance, then best wishes and luck to you.